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I’m Emily. I’m a wife and a mother. I’m also an RN.

A bit about me: I like babies, hiking, camping, being outside, and playing my guitar (which rarely happens these days). I like furniture makeovers, and I love people. I’m terrible at fashion and makeup (didn’t really figure that out until my late 20’s), and recalling prior conversations. I love Jesus and could never deny what He has saved me from. Throughout all of the ups and downs of this life, there is one thing I have learned, and that is that He is always enough.

Sometimes I can’t make sense of what is happening in my head; thus this blog. Writing helps me to work it out until it is {relatively} coherent.

My husband and I married in 2009 and within a little over a year it became apparent that children might not be in our future. At that time I was dealing with deep emotional pain over our infetility– so I started this blog as an outlet.

To summarize my particular journey with infertility: I was diagnosed with stage 4 Endometriosis in 2010. I have been through several treatments (birth control, Lupron, Endometriosis Diet) and have had multiple surgeries (3) to remove endometriomas and endometrial implants, as well as a hydrosalpinx of my left fallopian tube.

When we thought we’d never be able to have children, the Lord had other plans and miraculously blessed us with two children. In 2013 my endometriosis got so bad that I was considering a hysterectomy. But before going through with it, we decided to try IVF in June of 2013 as a “last-ditch” effort, even though the odds of us conceiving were very low (20% – read more about that here). It was a very scary time as we paid for everything out of pocket.

Against all odds, I miraculously got pregnant and gave birth to our son in March of 2014. An FET of two of our embryos that November resulted in a chemical pregnancy at 5 weeks. We transferred our remaining 2 embryos in our final FET in January of 2015, which resulted in the birth of our daughter in September of 2015.

Please do not hesitate to respond or write me a note, I enjoy hearing from you!

Below is our TTC journey:

2/2010 – Diagnosed with probable endometriosis. DR gives option for laparascopy and recommends trying to get pregnant ASAP to put endometriosis in remission.

2/2011 – After moving to a new town, new DR orders u/s and finds a 10 cm endometrioma and a 4 cm endometrioma. Because she can’t rule out cancer, a laparotomy is scheduled right away. No cancer is found, endometriomas  and endometrial implants are removed. DR says that we will have a very good chance of conceiving.

10/11 – Chronic pain develops and again two more endometriomas are found. HSG reveals a hrdrosalpinx of my left fallopian tube. This time I am sent to a specialist for surgery. Via laparoscopy, two endometriomas and my left fallopian tube are removed. I am amazed that the surgeon was able to remove the endometriomas without having to remove my ovaries at this point.

11/11 – I go on birth control to keep from ovulating and thus preventing further endometriomas. Several kinds of birth control are tried but they all made me sick.

2/12 – Uncertain of ever being able to have children even with IVF, we start adoption paperwork.

10/12 – We complete all of our adoption requirements and are waiting to be matched with a birth mother.

12/12 – Tired of being sick for a year on the birth control, I stop it and try the Endometriosis Diet. No gluten, no dairy, no red meat, and nothing that contains estrogen-like products such as soy.

2/13 – Just two months later, persistent pelvic pain returns and I cry in my DR’s exam room after another endometrioma is found on ultrasound. I am considering having a hysterectomy because of needing frequent surgeries. I don’t feel like I can go through with the hysterectomy without at least trying IVF first.

4/13 – Lapascopy to remove endometrioma. Miraculously, the endometrioma disappears just prior to surgery and only endometrial implants and adhesions are removed.

6/13 – IVF #1. 2-4 day embryos are transferred and 4 blastocysts frozen. BFP!

7/13 – 3/14 – Very painful pregnancy. Adhesions and scar tissue breaking apart as baby grows. Induced at 39 weeks due to severe pain. (Read my son’s birth story here.)

3/14 – Healthy baby boy born! We are overjoyed!

11/14 – FET#1. 2 blastocysts transferred in, one of which was looking poorly at the time. BFP!

12/14 – End up having chemical pregnancy at 5 weeks. Beta never rises above 216. 😦

12/14 – Immediately start birth control to start second and final FET.

1/15 – Two beautiful blastocysts transferred.

1/28/15 – Beta #1 at 11 dpo is 103! Beta #2 on 1/31/15 is 227. Pregnant with a singleton!

2/15 – Bleeding which turned out to be a subchorionic hemorrhage. Bed rest for 4 weeks.

8/15 – Diagnosed with intrahepatic cholestastis of pregnancy. NST’s x2/week, plan for early delivery.

9/15 – After a painless pregnancy, our healthy baby girl born at 36 weeks, 3 days! Read my daughter’s birth story here.

3 responses to “About

  1. I’m not a woman! But otherwise, many of the things you said resonate with me. My wife works with children with disabilities in the country we were called to as a family – Bangladesh. I have a few posts there on my blog about her work if you want to read them. I read yours on your ‘shameful memory’ and was deeply touched by your honesty and wisdom. a lovely blog to read – best wishes and blessings to you. 🙂

  2. Ken, thanks so much for the encouragement! I will definitely check out your blog. 🙂

  3. Anonymous

    Emily, I’ve really enjoyed reading your posts. My dear friend Caryn told me about your journey so I have started to follow your blog. Thanks for sharing your story. One doctor told me I have endometriosis. I have dealt with a lot of pain in the past. I don’t know for sure if that is what I have or not. I am pregnant with our first baby due in Aug. and I still have abdominal pain from time to time but he doctor says it is round ligament. Anyways thanks for sharing.

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